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so i havent updated lately. lots has happened. my bday turnin out like shit. i hate to say it guys, but it did. but thanks for tryin. umm ive jes been spendin alot of time wit my friends n bubs. bubs n i do alot together. today we had a arguement. n bubs was like michelle, come on we sleep together how can that not b enough...or somethin like tat. n today btw is our one month. i feel bad cuz i didnt give anythin to bubs. sigh. sorry bubs. things wit us have been a lil rocky as ppl say but we got through since i came back from arizona....we got real close....moved up in the relationship. we argue here and there...we tlk here n there.....we discuss wat we dont like n like....idk there was this one day where i felt like shit.. i felt like cryin for no reason. n it was cuz i miss karen soo damn much. fuck man. i miss u ate!!! sooo much. i wish u were here wit me rite now. it almost feels like u passed away...but in reality u jes live on the other side of the world. i no u cant read this....but watever. i miss alot of ppl. i dont see dan dan i dont see ari i dont see denise...wow i miss everyone. i miss them soo much. n now that im workin oh soo much theres nothin i can do....denise n ari are workin now so like they are busy like me....n fuck man. jes things have changed soo much in my life. alot of good n alot of good. i feel like writin in a journal...but the thing is...i never can keep up wit it...but its good to let htings out somewhere u no? wen u need to?
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woooowwwwzersss bday in 11 days...wonder wat my friends are goin to do for me on my bday. wonder wat im goin to get. wow im jes so excited that i cant wait. oh man.......wat will i get for my bday? hmmm?
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[01 Jul 2006|01:21pm] |
for my birthwwday im havin a suprise....from my friends.
i love roses
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today was a good day. i had a staff meetin at work, n it was like a spanish meetin. amanda and i had a translater. a bad one may i say. n then i saw jay and daniel after the meetin. n we went mini golfing. we kinda missed one free way that we had to go to and went all the way to sunset blvd..insteead of sepulveda blvd. i was mad. but its ok. and then we met at the sherman oaks castle and umm we had fun playin mini golfin. jay was lucky n got 1 hole in 1. it was crzy. he one 1st i won 2nd and daniel won 3rd. i think he pretended to lose. he wanted me to win i think. but i kinda wanted him to like challenge me lol. but its ok he was being sweet n lettin me win. n then we went to islands and ate. n watched the soccer game it was fun. i got one thing on my summa list completed.
summa list
*mini golfing
*mountasia
*swimming at many ppls houses
*universal
*disneyland
*goin on a blind fold adventure on my bday...july 17 ehhm u guys should no that already
*paintballin
*ice skatin
*skateland
*beach
i think thats bout it lol. but yea thats most of it. ^_^ im tired ima take a nap. but i think i should finish my hw first. peaace out
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lets see, im moving back into postin ljs lol. cuz daniel got me back into it. seems like this is more of a place to let things out rather than myspace. cuz someppl are jes like watever. but its good to let out how u feel in here. if someone looks at ur entry or not. umm last nite i was on the fone wit a friend for like hours straight, tlkn online n on the fone. it felt good to tlk to him. cuz he was listenin to n e thin i sed. n felt like he really cared bout my feelings. since i met him, he always seem to catch me on the wrong times. we got to no each other very well. we finally got off the fone at like 1ish. n went to bed. i woke up around 10 cuz i couldnt sleep anymore. umm i have work in like les than 2 hrs n i dont want to go lol. im workin 8hrs today and its goin to be a pain in the toosh. it would be nice to have a lil suprise today. i want to be blind folded on my bday. be taken somewhere fun. i wish i could of gone to universal wit daniel on tues. but i have school and maybe work. n if i didnt have work i would prob not be able to go still cuz school ends at like 1;30. so wat a poopie. hmm wonder if daniel is goin to see this lol.
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wow i havent wrote in a lj in such a long time. umm lets see life has been pretty much the same since last summa. actually idk yet cuz its only the beginning. i want to do so many things this summa i hope all my wishes come true. like i want to go to disneylamd, universal, mountasia, hurrican harbor, swimmin at a friends house, danielles house, and jes have an awesome time. wwrite now im tlkn to an awesome guy who cheered me up wen i was down a few hours ago. we tlk bout so much. i feel like i have to go pee lol. i think ima go so hold on daniel. lol u wont think i left cuz were not speakin rite now, cuz were writing a "entry" lol. brb lol...shhhh lol. ahh i dont want to go to work tom. tooo long! u have to come and visit me some time tom lol. ummm my bday is coming in like 23 days or something like that. im sooo excited and i dont even no wat im doin, i want to have a like suprise. like my friends or something take me on a blind fold adventure u no. thats awesome. i jes thought of that rite now. i want to be taken on a suprise cuz u no i love suprises. thats all i can say rite now.
ps...daniel and i like to sigh at the same time lol.
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i hate how i have to chose.
chose between three groups of people. i hate how everyday i have to
chose who i want to be wit during the day. i hate how the other person
or people get mad when im not with them. i try to hang wit u all...but
u jes all seem to split up and not sit at the same spot anymore.
i dont like the fact tat couples put there gf or bf first infront
of their family, friends and school. i dont get it cuz like ur not goin
to be wit ur bf or gf the rest of ur life and they wont be there after
you break up and wen u do break up u dont have any friends to turn to
becuz u put ur bf first. does anyone agreee wit me wit this? and like
ur friends or best friends will always be there but if u seem to put ur
bf first they will soon not care bout u becuz u didnt care bout them.
so like lets say u had a fite wit her bf or watever or u broke up and
then u call a friend and they dont want to deal wit u or tlk to u
watever.....maybe its cuz u werent around wen they wanted u or needed
u. and as everyone says CHICKS BEFORE DICKS!!!
ummm.....basketball lol, lets see im on jv woot woot. lol and ummm
school is ummm tough. lots of hw every nite. and i hate to say it but i
hate how ppl freakin tlk shit boout me. especially ppl who are younger
than me. i dont get it, if u got somethin to say say it to my face
cuz,,,,if u havent notice im pretty small and not mean at all but if u
get on my nerves or tlk shit say it to my face bitch. and we can sort
this out.....oh and dont fuckin tlk shit and im right behind u and then
walk wit me after skoo tlkn bout gettin my license so i can take ur ass
home!!! fuckin biatch!!!
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dude!! skoo is like ahhhh i need like help in chem. and like i thought this yr will be easy but fuck....lol its kinda hard. well my bro is finally like really leaving my house and like gettin kicked out for real and living wit my dad. sux. well at least i get his car. but its a crappy car though. but its aight. well thats it for now peace out<3
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k update on summer...well lets
see. i have been spending the whole summer wit my two best friends
Amanda and Drake. im sorry for everyone who i sed that i sed i would
chill wit u. (alysia) and other ppl i sed. my summer has been pretty
crazy and full of happyness, saddness, and heartbreakin. first i
finally got wit pj after a month of like seeing him lol he finally
asked me out. and then i realized that he was never there for me wen i
needed someone so i broke up wit him. = / yeah. sorry drake. oh and i
also broke up wit him to be wit my other ex boyfriend Andres. he told
me how he felt right wen i was going out wit Pj and like told me
that ever since he met me he always liked me and i had no idea cuz i
thought he liked amanda and so yeah i was like tryin to get wit his
friends and like yeah. and like i got to thinkin he always did make me
feel happy and he always seemed to cheer me up wen i was down. n like
he was jes a really sweet caring guy. so i broke up wit pj to be wit
him cuz i thought he would be there if i needed him. which he was. and
like one day tells me he wants to break up. he wanted 2 break up cuz
like i talk bout my bff too much and was like sayin i aint good enough
for u cuz like u keep saying ur bff does this and blah blah blah. but
it wasnt true i liked him for him. and so we broke up. tear. and then
ummm i was single again. and urin summer like i jes chilled wit my
friends but like it was weird cuz like i was always alone and sad. cuz
they would always be toghet and like yeah u no how it kinda gets wen u
see a couple who look so happy and like u gots nobody. well thats
how i felt. u can say i felt left out alot of the times. but yeah i
understand it jes kinda sucked u no.
wen we did go out like clubbin we had hella fun. gee ppl were like
staring at me cuz like i was like ridin this guy i liked and it was jes
funny ass hell and like i didnt want to leave cuz i was havin a great
ass time. and like made my mom wait 15mins outside till i came out. and
like wen we got home told me that i couldnt see my friends anymore. and
like had to make my guy friends go downstairs and go to bed. while
amanda and i were stuck upstairs locked in my room starving to death
lol. and going through some rough times of like literally not being
able to see her ever again. cuz like i use 2 always tell her fuck u i
dont want 2 be ur friend anymore i cant take it anymore and blah blah
blah. but this time it wasnt a choice of mine. it was my moms choice.
tellin me i cant see my friends ever again. so we had a very special
momment where we both cried. we've never been so close in our entire
lives together. and like we ended up still seeing each other. haha.
that was a scary momment.
amanda- wen i told u last nite that like yest. and today are like the
best day of my summa. like i didnt mean to like hurt you. or like make
u mad. we did have good times.until things got messed up. like the
club. and there were other times too. but like i think i jes said that
cuz i was jes really happy that so many good things happen to me that
day that it jes made me feel sooooo happy. cuz like u no that i havent
seen ari and i have been wanting to see her in like forever. and
anthony like waiting for him to call. and he did. so like yeah. i love
you sooo much. and im really glad were best friends too. like i know
ppl may be mad cuz all i do is chill wit u and like get into fights wit
u. and still stay ur friend. but like we still seem to manage a lil to
not lose wat we have. wen i read the thing to money. he got mad at me
cuz i always pick fights wit u and i think i do it is becuz like thats
the only way i get to u no. cuz the whole other time is like u wit
drake. so thats maybe one reason why i pick fites wit u. n like...i
hate to see u cry wen we fight. i wish like from now on wen we do fight
we can tlk bout it like drake and i do. cuz it seems to help me alot.
wen i tlk 2 drake bout it. n it helps u let things out. and how u feel
and wat u want to say. well i really do wish we stay bff for ever,
homies for life, and a happy family. te amo, mahal kita, i love u.
p.s. that post made me feel real happy, showed that u really do care
bout me. haha u should post more often lol. well i hope to see u soon.
or wenever.
oh and like i have had some major problems lately wit some ppl. like anthony- this guy i like that i havent even met yet..but have tlked 2 on the fone and seen his pic. like yeah. i was like really sad that he didnt want to see me wen he got back from his trip. but hopefully things work out fine wen we meet each other becuz we seem to like the same things and get along jes fine. umm and then theres andres- my x bf...as u can see still not over him *sighs* got wit the girl that liked him way b4 we went out. and like i dont no still had feelings for him wen we were goin out. and like over the weekend all i could do was listen to this song over and over again Nsync-gone. haha and everytime i hear this song Nb ridaz-notice me. like wow those lyrics are like everything we told each other. thats crazy. i cant seem to get over him which is really hard. cuz he makes me soo sad. and shit. ughhh!!! amanda was there for me one day. asking me wats wrong. n that made me happy that she cared. n i no she cares for me..but like she never shows it. and then theres erin lol. haha no comment bout that. cept for the ppl who no bout it lol. and yeah. kk
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hmm lets see. post up. uhh summer
skoo is over. yay! bball camp is over :'( tear. i love those freshys
and everyone else i met this yr. i really hope i make the team also. if
i dont then...idk cuz like i really wanna do a sport and like keep in
shape. uhhhhh wat else. yeah i told Anthony's voicemail that i was
gonna miss him and cant wait to see him wen skoo comes around. so im
excited bout that. uhhh wat else....hmm tom are my 2 bff aniversary
celebration of 2months yay! uhhh soon 2 be workin. some where hopefully
uhh coldstones lol.
going clubbin on sunday its gonna be fun. ya'll should come. its great
its on ventura its like a club for high skoo ppl if u want more info
lemme no. ummm i feel my old friends think that like im like tryin 2 be
all pornagraphic on myspace and like tlkn behind my back bout my pics.
well really im not tryin 2 be like tat. and come on like this is hs im
not in a catholic hs and ppl change so like if u thought iwas some good
tu shoes then u guessed wrong i guess. i really miss some ppl like my
bff's we dont seem to hang out like we use 2 last summer. we seem to
like not be friends either its kinda of a bummer. like one i still try
2 see and i miss her soooo much. but never has time 2 chill cuz i had
summa skoo and camp. so maybe she can hang wit me now. n my other bff
shes jes like been distant ever since she came back from some where. n
like wow i jes been really a bitch lately to some ppl. i feel bad.
yest i was a big ass bitch to my bro, shy, and amanda. im really sorry
bout that. and i was cranky 2. so like if u freakin get on my nervous
like that u will see a side of me u would not want 2 see ever!!! umm
today amanda n i umm tanned in my backyard. haha it was fun kinda...but
really hott. n then was like a fight btwn me and her and drake cuz like
i found out drake and amanda and drakes mom wanted 2 go 2 dinner and i
didnt no that. and umm yeah i found out by being nosy. but
like....amanda if u jes got sumtin 2 tell me jes tell me i will
understand. and like i really didnt want 2 intrude in ur guys dinner.
=/ and like ur whole. being together. n like being wit each other
n i no it mite of seemed like i was mad at u.. n u thought i was prolly
mad cuz u left me...but really i was tired. and didnt feel like goin
swimmin at like 8;30. and like sittin for 2hrs waiting to go swimmin.
cuz like have u ever felt like u were excited 2 do sumtin and then like
u have been waitin and waitin and then u dont feel like goin anymore.
well thats how i felt. and then it started gettin cold so i didnt want
2 like swim. and stuff. yeah... well it'd be cool if u guys commented =D
oh yah. i tink i've changed. like i dont tink i like hip hop or rap
music anymore. i like hard core music. haha like usually i like both
and i have those days where i like listen 2 hard core music 4 a day
then go back to rap but this week since tues. all i've been wantin 2
listen 2 is hard core music. lol weird i no. its not me either. lol
also im scared 2 go 2 da dr. tom cuz i havent been takin my meds that
im suppose 2 be takin everyday n like im gona get a blood test and
urine and like there gonna see that ihavent been takin it n like make
me be on a higher dosage so im scared shitless bout that and my mom is
gona yell at me bout it. ayyaa like i've been takin meds since i was in
5th grade like.. it kinda gets to a point where u cant stand shoving
pills down ur throat!!! >_<
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Anthony,
every day is somthing new trying to get my mind off u thinking hoping waiting to this is what i think of u
every day i really do it drives me crazy where r u
i wish i could even see u to that would be really cool
every day is somthing new but to make every day good i most have u
man...i no he wont be able 2 see this..but if it takes all summer till
i see u then i shall wait..cuz anthony, thats how much i want to be
with you. i will wait till you come back from your "no life" of goin 2
indiana and missouri and i will wait. and wen u come back we shall be
together. n wen we meet for the first time it shall be meaningful, fun,
exciting, great, cherishable. till then i will wait for you.
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its my bday today!! and umm
yest i went to skateland haha yeah and had some friends come and then
we had dinner at bj's and then went to the northridge mall where
everything got fucked up lol. and then saw a movie... charlie and the
chocolate factory. and then ummm took shy home and then drake and
amanda slept over. up till like 5am and then we had lunch at a chinese
place....thought they were gonna have a suprise for me today. but like
things got messed up. so really umm it kinda sucked cuz we jes stayed
at my house. which i didnt really want to do. umm yeahhh
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doesnt
it suck wen u thought u found the one...and they tell u that they love
u.....love u soo much wit all there hearts. n all u can do is jes look
at there eyes and smile. in your mind your thinking its too soon to say
i love you. as time passed by you feel for that special person more and
more. and wen you finally want to tell them that you love them..they
want to break up and see other people. it tears your heart into
pieces...not knowing things went wrong. the day of he tells you he
wants 2 see other ppl breaks your heart. everything was fine earlier
that day. wat had happen? people said we would last. i thought we would
too. we had sooo much in common. we have fun wen were together. we can
be ourselves. we can do practically ne thing together.....
i remember the first day we saw each other wen we told each other
bout how we feel bout each other. we were goin 2 da movies.. as i
saw his wonderful face it jes made me smile like crazy....on the way to
the movies i picked up my bff and we almost crashed cuz i was sooo
nervous to see him. and wen we ate up stairs at the AMC. i would giggle
and smile and shake. i dont no why..maybe cuz i was jes sooo nervous
and like happy to see him. as i look at him he winks and smiles...makes
me blush alot haha. n my friends would question why I was so happy and
giggly. In my head I said to myself. I’m really happy..I think he’s the
guy that will treat me rite. I can feel it. So we had to go back to my
friends house to get some money and like we were gonna be late and so
were like lets go down the hill...and like he carries me and we go down
the hill...he slips and falls and I bang into his head causing to get a
big ass bump on da side of my head.=( and then we go 2 da movies were
together and he brings my chin to face his face and we kiss...it was
amazing.
But all that is sed and done. And now we forget the past and move on to
the future...he tells me that he wants 2 see other people. I don’t get
why we were so happy. My heart breaks...and a part of me says wat a
player wat a joke. Who would of thought that he was diffrent. We all
thought he was a big giant teddy bear. But really I guess hes a player
a player who plays girls. I still think bout wat could have happened.
Begged to have him back. But all the emails, all the texts I sent the
pics I sent wasnt enough. It wasnt enough to keep our love strong. And
now we must end, end the terrible tragedy and move on.
<3 always,
Michelle...aka Jamie
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