Michelle

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 07:13:45 GMT

so i havent updated lately. lots has happened. my bday turnin out like shit. i hate to say it guys, but it did. but thanks for tryin. umm ive jes been spendin alot of time wit my friends n bubs. bubs n i do alot together. today we had a arguement. n bubs was like michelle, come on we sleep together how can that not b enough...or somethin like tat. n today btw is our one month. i feel bad cuz i didnt give anythin to bubs. sigh. sorry bubs. things wit us have been a lil rocky as ppl say but we got through since i came back from arizona....we got real close....moved up in the relationship. we argue here and there...we tlk here n there.....we discuss wat we dont like n like....idk there was this one day where i felt like shit.. i felt like cryin for no reason. n it was cuz i miss karen soo damn much. fuck man. i miss u ate!!! sooo much. i wish u were here wit me rite now. it almost feels like u passed away...but in reality u jes live on the other side of the world. i no u cant read this....but watever. i miss alot of ppl. i dont see dan dan i dont see ari i dont see denise...wow i miss everyone. i miss them soo much. n now that im workin oh soo much theres nothin i can do....denise n ari are workin now so like they are busy like me....n fuck man. jes things have changed soo much in my life. alot of good n alot of good. i feel like writin in a journal...but the thing is...i never can keep up wit it...but its good to let htings out somewhere u no? wen u need to?

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 02:46:50 GMT

woooowwwwzersss bday in 11 days...wonder wat my friends are goin to do for me on my bday. wonder wat im goin to get. wow im jes so excited that i cant wait. oh man.......wat will i get for my bday? hmmm?

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 20:24:33 GMT

for my birthwwday im havin a suprise....from my friends.

i love roses

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 21:24:07 GMT

today was a good day. i had a staff meetin at work, n it was like a spanish meetin. amanda and i had a translater. a bad one may i say. n then i saw jay and daniel after the meetin. n we went mini golfing. we kinda missed one free way that we had to go to and went all the way to sunset blvd..insteead of sepulveda blvd. i was mad. but its ok. and then we met at the sherman oaks castle and umm we had fun playin mini golfin. jay was lucky n got 1 hole in 1. it was crzy. he one 1st i won 2nd and daniel won 3rd. i think he pretended to lose. he wanted me to win i think. but i kinda wanted him to like challenge me lol. but its ok he was being sweet n lettin me win. n then we went to islands and ate. n watched the soccer game it was fun. i got one thing on my summa list completed.

summa list
*mini golfing
*mountasia
*swimming at many ppls houses
*universal
*disneyland
*goin on a blind fold adventure on my bday...july 17 ehhm u guys should no that already
*paintballin
*ice skatin
*skateland
*beach
i think thats bout it lol. but yea thats most of it. ^_^ im tired ima take a nap. but i think i should finish my hw first. peaace out

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 17:52:23 GMT

lets see, im moving back into postin ljs lol. cuz daniel got me back into it. seems like this is more of a place to let things out rather than myspace. cuz someppl are jes like watever. but its good to let out how u feel in here. if someone looks at ur entry or not. umm last nite i was on the fone wit a friend for like hours straight, tlkn online n on the fone. it felt good to tlk to him. cuz he was listenin to n e thin i sed. n felt like he really cared bout my feelings. since i met him, he always seem to catch me on the wrong times. we got to no each other very well. we finally got off the fone at like 1ish. n went to bed. i woke up around 10 cuz i couldnt sleep anymore. umm i have work in like les than 2 hrs n i dont want to go lol. im workin 8hrs today and its goin to be a pain in the toosh. it would be nice to have a lil suprise today. i want to be blind folded on my bday. be taken somewhere fun. i wish i could of gone to universal wit daniel on tues. but i have school and maybe work. n if i didnt have work i would prob not be able to go still cuz school ends at like 1;30. so wat a poopie. hmm wonder if daniel is goin to see this lol.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 06:48:41 GMT

wow i havent wrote in a lj in such a long time. umm lets see life has been pretty much the same since last summa. actually idk yet cuz its only the beginning. i want to do so many things this summa i hope all my wishes come true. like i want to go to disneylamd, universal, mountasia, hurrican harbor, swimmin at a friends house, danielles house, and jes have an awesome time. wwrite now im tlkn to an awesome guy who cheered me up wen i was down a few hours ago. we tlk bout so much. i feel like i have to go pee lol. i think ima go so hold on daniel. lol u wont think i left cuz were not speakin rite now, cuz were writing a "entry" lol. brb lol...shhhh lol. ahh i dont want to go to work tom. tooo long! u have to come and visit me some time tom lol. ummm my bday is coming in like 23 days or something like that. im sooo excited and i dont even no wat im doin, i want to have a like suprise. like my friends or something take me on a blind fold adventure u no. thats awesome. i jes thought of that rite now. i want to be taken on a suprise cuz u no i love suprises. thats all i can say rite now.

ps...daniel and i like to sigh at the same time lol.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 23:07:15 GMT

i hate how i have to chose. chose between three groups of people. i hate how everyday i have to chose who i want to be wit during the day. i hate how the other person or people get mad when im not with them. i try to hang wit u all...but u jes all seem to split up and not sit at the same spot anymore.

i dont like the fact tat couples put there gf or bf first infront of their family, friends and school. i dont get it cuz like ur not goin to be wit ur bf or gf the rest of ur life and they wont be there after you break up and wen u do break up u dont have any friends to turn to becuz u put ur bf first. does anyone agreee wit me wit this? and like ur friends or best friends will always be there but if u seem to put ur bf first they will soon not care bout u becuz u didnt care bout them. so like lets say u had a fite wit her bf or watever or u broke up and then u call a friend and they dont want to deal wit u or tlk to u watever.....maybe its cuz u werent around wen they wanted u or needed u. and as everyone says CHICKS BEFORE DICKS!!!

ummm.....basketball lol, lets see im on jv woot woot. lol and ummm school is ummm tough. lots of hw every nite. and i hate to say it but i hate how ppl freakin tlk shit boout me. especially ppl who are younger than me. i dont get it, if u got somethin to say say it to my face cuz,,,,if u havent notice im pretty small and not mean at all but if u get on my nerves or tlk shit say it to my face bitch. and we can sort this out.....oh and dont fuckin tlk shit and im right behind u and then walk wit me after skoo tlkn bout gettin my license so i can take ur ass home!!! fuckin biatch!!!

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 04:25:41 GMT

im serious who can tutor me in chem!!!!!!

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 18:06:01 GMT

dude!! skoo is like ahhhh i need like help in chem. and like i thought this yr will be easy but fuck....lol its kinda hard. well my bro is finally like really leaving my house and like gettin kicked out for real and living wit my dad. sux. well at least i get his car. but its a crappy car though. but its aight. well thats it for now peace out<3

crazy asss shitt

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:36:41 GMT

k update on summer...well lets see. i have been spending the whole summer wit my two best friends Amanda and Drake. im sorry for everyone who i sed that i sed i would chill wit u. (alysia) and other ppl i sed. my summer has been pretty crazy and full of happyness, saddness, and heartbreakin. first i finally got wit pj after a month of like seeing him lol he finally asked me out. and then i realized that he was never there for me wen i needed someone so i broke up wit him. = / yeah. sorry drake. oh and i also broke up wit him to be wit my other ex boyfriend Andres. he told me how he felt right wen i was going out wit Pj and like told me that ever since he met me he always liked me and i had no idea cuz i thought he liked amanda and so yeah i was like tryin to get wit his friends and like yeah. and like i got to thinkin he always did make me feel happy and he always seemed to cheer me up wen i was down. n like he was jes a really sweet caring guy. so i broke up wit pj to be wit him cuz i thought he would be there if i needed him. which he was. and like one day tells me he wants to break up. he wanted 2 break up cuz like i talk bout my bff too much and was like sayin i aint good enough for u cuz like u keep saying ur bff does this and blah blah blah. but it wasnt true i liked him for him. and so we broke up. tear. and then ummm i was single again. and urin summer like i jes chilled wit my friends but like it was weird cuz like i was always alone and sad. cuz they would always be toghet and like yeah u no how it kinda gets wen u see a couple who look so happy and like u gots nobody. well thats how i felt. u can say i felt left out alot of the times. but yeah i understand it jes kinda sucked u no.

wen we did go out like clubbin we had hella fun. gee ppl were like staring at me cuz like i was like ridin this guy i liked and it was jes funny ass hell and like i didnt want to leave cuz i was havin a great ass time. and like made my mom wait 15mins outside till i came out. and like wen we got home told me that i couldnt see my friends anymore. and like had to make my guy friends go downstairs and go to bed. while amanda and i were stuck upstairs locked in my room starving to death lol. and going through some rough times of like literally not being able to see her ever again. cuz like i use 2 always tell her fuck u i dont want 2 be ur friend anymore i cant take it anymore and blah blah blah. but this time it wasnt a choice of mine. it was my moms choice. tellin me i cant see my friends ever again. so we had a very special momment where we both cried. we've never been so close in our entire lives together. and like we ended up still seeing each other. haha. that was a scary momment.

amanda- wen i told u last nite that like yest. and today are like the best day of my summa. like i didnt mean to like hurt you. or like make u mad. we did have good times.until things got messed up. like the club. and there were other times too. but like i think i jes said that cuz i was jes really happy that so many good things happen to me that day that it jes made me feel sooooo happy. cuz like u no that i havent seen ari and i have been wanting to see her in like forever. and anthony like waiting for him to call. and he did. so like yeah. i love you sooo much. and im really glad were best friends too. like i know ppl may be mad cuz all i do is chill wit u and like get into fights wit u. and still stay ur friend. but like we still seem to manage a lil to not lose wat we have. wen i read the thing to money. he got mad at me cuz i always pick fights wit u and i think i do it is becuz like thats the only way i get to u no. cuz the whole other time is like u wit drake. so thats maybe one reason why i pick fites wit u. n like...i hate to see u cry wen we fight. i wish like from now on wen we do fight we can tlk bout it like drake and i do. cuz it seems to help me alot. wen i tlk 2 drake bout it. n it helps u let things out. and how u feel and wat u want to say. well i really do wish we stay bff for ever, homies for life, and a happy family. te amo, mahal kita, i love u.
p.s. that post made me feel real happy, showed that u really do care bout me. haha u should post more often lol. well i hope to see u soon. or wenever.
oh and like i have had some major problems lately wit some ppl. like anthony- this guy i like that i havent even met yet..but have tlked 2 on the fone and seen his pic. like yeah. i was like really sad that he didnt want to see me wen he got back from his trip. but hopefully things work out fine wen we meet each other becuz we seem to like the same things and get along jes fine. umm and then theres andres- my x bf...as u can see still not over him *sighs* got wit the girl that liked him way b4 we went out. and like i dont no still had feelings for him wen we were goin out. and like over the weekend all i could do was listen to this song over and over again Nsync-gone. haha and everytime i hear this song Nb ridaz-notice me. like wow those lyrics are like everything we told each other. thats crazy. i cant seem to get over him which is really hard. cuz he makes me soo sad. and shit. ughhh!!! amanda was there for me one day. asking me wats wrong. n that made me happy that she cared. n i no she cares for me..but like she never shows it. and then theres erin lol. haha no comment bout that. cept for the ppl who no bout it lol. and yeah. kk

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 05:55:04 GMT

hmm lets see. post up. uhh summer skoo is over. yay! bball camp is over :'( tear. i love those freshys and everyone else i met this yr. i really hope i make the team also. if i dont then...idk cuz like i really wanna do a sport and like keep in shape. uhhhhh wat else. yeah i told Anthony's voicemail that i was gonna miss him and cant wait to see him wen skoo comes around. so im excited bout that. uhhh wat else....hmm tom are my 2 bff aniversary celebration of 2months yay! uhhh soon 2 be workin. some where hopefully uhh coldstones lol.

going clubbin on sunday its gonna be fun. ya'll should come. its great its on ventura its like a club for high skoo ppl if u want more info lemme no. ummm i feel my old friends think that like im like tryin 2 be all pornagraphic on myspace and like tlkn behind my back bout my pics. well really im not tryin 2 be like tat. and come on like this is hs im not in a catholic hs and ppl change so like if u thought iwas some good tu shoes then u guessed wrong i guess. i really miss some ppl like my bff's we dont seem to hang out like we use 2 last summer. we seem to like not be friends either its kinda of a bummer. like one i still try 2 see and i miss her soooo much. but never has time 2 chill cuz i had summa skoo and camp. so maybe she can hang wit me now. n my other bff shes jes like been distant ever since she came back from some where. n like wow i jes been really a bitch lately to some ppl. i feel bad.

yest i was a big ass bitch to my bro, shy, and amanda. im really sorry bout that. and i was cranky 2. so like if u freakin get on my nervous like that u will see a side of me u would not want 2 see ever!!! umm today amanda n i umm tanned in my backyard. haha it was fun kinda...but really hott. n then was like a fight btwn me and her and drake cuz like i found out drake and amanda and drakes mom wanted 2 go 2 dinner and i didnt no that. and umm yeah i found out by being nosy. but like....amanda if u jes got sumtin 2 tell me jes tell me i will understand. and like i really didnt want 2 intrude in ur guys dinner. =/ and like ur whole. being together. n like being wit each other

n i no it mite of seemed like i was mad at u.. n u thought i was prolly mad cuz u left me...but really i was tired. and didnt feel like goin swimmin at like 8;30. and like sittin for 2hrs waiting to go swimmin. cuz like have u ever felt like u were excited 2 do sumtin and then like u have been waitin and waitin and then u dont feel like goin anymore. well thats how i felt. and then it started gettin cold so i didnt want 2 like swim. and stuff. yeah... well it'd be cool if u guys commented =D

oh yah. i tink i've changed. like i dont tink i like hip hop or rap music anymore. i like hard core music. haha like usually i like both and i have those days where i like listen 2 hard core music 4 a day then go back to rap but this week since tues. all i've been wantin 2 listen 2 is hard core music. lol weird i no. its not me either. lol

also im scared 2 go 2 da dr. tom cuz i havent been takin my meds that im suppose 2 be takin everyday n like im gona get a blood test and urine and like there gonna see that ihavent been takin it n like make me be on a higher dosage so im scared shitless bout that and my mom is gona yell at me bout it. ayyaa like i've been takin meds since i was in 5th grade like.. it kinda gets to a point where u cant stand shoving pills down ur throat!!! >_<

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 01:58:06 GMT

Anthony,
every day is somthing new trying to get my mind off u thinking hoping waiting to this is what i think of u
every day i really do it drives me crazy where r u
i wish i could even see u to that would be really cool
every day is somthing new but to make every day good i most have u

man...i no he wont be able 2 see this..but if it takes all summer till i see u then i shall wait..cuz anthony, thats how much i want to be with you. i will wait till you come back from your "no life" of goin 2 indiana and missouri and i will wait. and wen u come back we shall be together. n wen we meet for the first time it shall be meaningful, fun, exciting, great, cherishable. till then i will wait for you.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 02:37:13 GMT

its my bday today!! and umm yest i went to skateland haha yeah and had some friends come and then we had dinner at bj's and then went to the northridge mall where everything got fucked up lol. and then saw a movie... charlie and the chocolate factory. and then ummm took shy home and then drake and amanda slept over. up till like 5am and then we had lunch at a chinese place....thought they were gonna have a suprise for me today. but like things got messed up. so really umm it kinda sucked cuz we jes stayed at my house. which i didnt really want to do. umm yeahhh

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:37:28 GMT

doesnt it suck wen u thought u found the one...and they tell u that they love u.....love u soo much wit all there hearts. n all u can do is jes look at there eyes and smile. in your mind your thinking its too soon to say i love you. as time passed by you feel for that special person more and more. and wen you finally want to tell them that you love them..they want to break up and see other people. it tears your heart into pieces...not knowing things went wrong. the day of he tells you he wants 2 see other ppl breaks your heart. everything was fine earlier that day. wat had happen? people said we would last. i thought we would too. we had sooo much in common. we have fun wen were together. we can be ourselves. we can do practically ne thing together.....

i remember the first day we saw each other wen we told each other bout how we feel bout each other. we were goin 2 da movies.. as i saw his wonderful face it jes made me smile like crazy....on the way to the movies i picked up my bff and we almost crashed cuz i was sooo nervous to see him. and wen we ate up stairs at the AMC. i would giggle and smile and shake. i dont no why..maybe cuz i was jes sooo nervous and like happy to see him. as i look at him he winks and smiles...makes me blush alot haha. n my friends would question why I was so happy and giggly. In my head I said to myself. I’m really happy..I think he’s the guy that will treat me rite. I can feel it. So we had to go back to my friends house to get some money and like we were gonna be late and so were like lets go down the hill...and like he carries me and we go down the hill...he slips and falls and I bang into his head causing to get a big ass bump on da side of my head.=( and then we go 2 da movies were together and he brings my chin to face his face and we kiss...it was amazing.

But all that is sed and done. And now we forget the past and move on to the future...he tells me that he wants 2 see other people. I don’t get why we were so happy. My heart breaks...and a part of me says wat a player wat a joke. Who would of thought that he was diffrent. We all thought he was a big giant teddy bear. But really I guess hes a player a player who plays girls. I still think bout wat could have happened. Begged to have him back. But all the emails, all the texts I sent the pics I sent wasnt enough. It wasnt enough to keep our love strong. And now we must end, end the terrible tragedy and move on.

<3 always,
Michelle...aka Jamie

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 19:56:21 GMT

this is how he asked me out...wit da door closed and wen i opened the door my white board was there...

drake and amanda shocked wen i told them andres asked me out....lmao

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 05:29:41 GMT

lets see...uhhh pj and i broke up...( i broke up wit him) uhh we both realized we didnt have any feelings for each other...it was good that we did becuz i wasnt gonna waste my tears over him.i wasnt gonna be miserable everynite...cryin out to ppl like amanda and askin wat should i do. n thnk god its over cuz i met someone else...well he asked me out b4 pj but i felt i liked pj more back then cuz it was a shock for him 2 ask me out i would have never have thought...cuz he liked my friend and i tried gettin wit his friends..didnt work out and now were deeply into each other...he makes me happy...he always had. ever since i met him he'd always made me happy..and now that he told me that he has feelings for me its jes wow. hes amazing like we actually have things in common...and he isnt fake like pj was..but pj and i's brake up was mutal...i think thats da word. and like the other guy was always on my mind wen i was wit pj...i couldn never take himn off my mind...ever since he told me he liked me and asked me 2 b his gf. and like he doesnt kiss me n get aroused, wen we kiss its sumtin meaningful and wen i kissed pj he jes got horny ass fuck!! lol. as i told amanda he used me lol but watev i really dont care..cuz i actually truly found someone who has cared for me ever since da day i met him like a few months back. =D well thats my update comment <3

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 22:07:43 GMT

* heres an update

* got asked out by pj finally- uhhh it kinda sux cuz im not happy...ur supose 2 b happy wen u have someone but i feel da opposite. ughhh he doesnt show his feelings to me. it jes fuckin sux ass there are times where i wanna break up wit him cuz i cant take it n e more...he seems useless.. no wonder he told me he didnt have long relationships cuz the girls didnt like how he was....but he told me that hes changing that he feels that he cant hide things side n e more, and my bff sed that like he changed alot for me so thats wat i expected..for him 2 be more caring to change the way he is rite now...but i guess not...ughh its killin me help me out here ppl wat should i do

summer school-it sux its freakin 5hrs long 4 one class and i have a test every other day on a chapter. n like its insane and im havin one of my homies help me but like i feel that im takin away there time of being together but like they see each other like everyday...and like cant i jes take away like a hr or 2 away for help u no? well i no shes gonna see this =/. but yeah maybe ill find another person to help me.....haha im carpoolin wit shy guy..lmao its funny

basketball camp-uhh started on tues...kinda scary lol we did alot of runnin wow i almost fainted and im sore and like yah wanted 2 quit...but my homies told me not to so i didnt which is good.. cuz like im losin weight...cuz like now im actually eating at every meal and like eatin alotttt and so yeah i thought i would gain but i dont....it sux though cuz like its takin away my summer =( n like there are sooo many ppl i sed that i would chill wit them but like i have no time and it sux.....thats y i wanted 2 quit bball cuz i wouldnt have a summer lol....but watev its aight its over wen summa skoo is over

oh yeah and i lost bout 13.5 lbs since school year till now ^_^ yay!!! yeah so theres an update....can u plz give me an opinon on wat i should do wit pj ....=/

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 01:25:16 GMT

i got Prater,V and Bacharach for geometry summer skoo??? do u got them 2 ??? lemme no or lemme no who does aight peace out hommie >#

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 22:53:56 GMT

hey hey hey...ummm school is almost over 3 more days to go....and its kinda sad...i feel that the ppl i met this yr wont tlk 2 me again next yr or will ever tlk 2 me again. bri plz dont forget me!!! n i wont 4get u babe!!! ima miss u sooooo much!!! tear dude tear!! i hope u see this....alysia we shall be closer by da next yr and we will go swimming i promise!!! uhhhh amanda...i feel da way that i do is becuz....i dunno u have drake and like seems like hes takin over me being there...but wen he says he doesnt he jes sayin it jes becuz....well ill tell u how i feel wen u reply 2 dis and reply back 2 me....especially yest wen all u were doin was txting kyle or drake wen u were wit me.....=/..........aight well thats all i have to say

peace out homies,
Michelle

p.s.- writing in yr books got me to like sign my name hehe ^_^

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:56:35 GMT

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*List six of your current favorite songs, and tag six people to do this too.

*Howie Day-collide

*NB Ridaz-Notice Me

*Collective Soul-After All

*3 doors down-Let Me go

*Weezer-Hash Pipe

*Snow Patrol-Chocolate

<gay songs i no..but wat can i say i luv these cute stuff..goes wit my personality cuz im CUTE well ppl say i am lol u all better do this or ima kill you ^_^>

AMANDA,NISA!!!,ALYSIA!!!!,STEPH!!!>_<, ALEX!!!, Melissa I <3 u!!!

Sat, 28 May 2005 16:41:28 GMT

wow wat can i say....i found someone...someone who likes me for me. last nite was amazin. i didnt want 2 let go of him holdin me tight...lookin down on me. aww it was jes too cute. i never new i would find someone like him...hopefully things work out..well ill ttyl bye <3

Fri, 27 May 2005 00:08:30 GMT

What can i say?.....life is gettin better....friends rejoining together....im fly like a feather....trying to figure out the weather. i finally express how i feel....i try to deal...words cant explain how i feel... i tell the person my dying love to them and they seem to not now how they feel. i dont care how much they are confused...i still express how much i feel for them...its not bout sex, or to make out, its to be loved....to love someone to share your life with them as much as you can becuz u dont wanna lose them. everyday i tell the person how gr8 they look...as they look at me like im crzy, which im crzy in love. i know we will never be together but i just want them to no how i feel each and every day.

Some of you may no who i am tlkn some think im crzy cuz im in love wit a person, some will think its cute....as always my love for this person will always be anonymous.

each and every day i try to tell the person to be wit me, and tells me others are driving them crzy and ill be here for you no matter how many times you reject me or no matter how many times u say no i will still be right there by ur side...lookin up..hehe. wen ppl mess wit u ill mess with them back. i would sacrafice my body to jes make u feel safe. to make u not be scared of what they will do to you. u may think im obsessed, but i truly am not...i am a bff i am a gr8 person. i dont try 2 b a bitch.

i tell you i like you not afraid to tell. wat can i say i fell.....fell head over heals. i rather see you happy then to eat veal. i no whatever you decide that i will have to deal. deal with the pain. wen im old ill walk around in a cane. ill look at the tv and see your fame, wish i was still playing a game. i have nobody to blame. plz listen wen i say im not obsessed just crzy over you.

i tell you that i can do better than others, that i can feel your pain of sadness. that is why i am here to explain. ever since i first caught my eye on you i wanted 2 be your friend. as time passed by i didnt want to be only your friend i wanted to be something more. i no that will never happen and i just wanna say how i feel deep down inside even though i tell you each and everyday. you opposed my ideas of telling you how hott you were, how good you look wen you writing somethin as you smile, lookin at you like that makes me smile. i just dont wanna be ur bff i wanna b wit u i want to be with you not for sex, to make out and see how good of a kisser you are, or to hold your hand, or to do anythin, all i ask for is to be with you..to hold you

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 23:19:00 GMT

Hmmm how is life goin 4 me rite now?
*uhhh i guess its gettin better
*still seems like my friends and i are drifting off from each other
*family probs are gettin better i thinkk..
*i feel that im gettin addicted but not really...cant say wat cuz ppl r gonna fuckin tell!
*uhhhh sometimes i jes wanna cry 4 no reason...
i want 2 be emancipated
*friends mad at me 4 doin somethin im not suppose 2 and i think their still mad at me... =/
*ughhhh
*been so depressedddddd
*feel that some of my friends hate me =(
oh and did i mention i keep gettin fatter and fatter!!
*scurred i wont make the basketball team....Tryouts are on MAY 16 ahhh!!!

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 06:21:36 GMT

Yeah 2nite was funn.....went 2 jens after skoo we went 2 da DMV she got her permit and so did MEL yay! uhhhh then we went 2 her house and chilled found out there was a party from Luis...thought this guy was luis but wasnt....very hott!! oooo. we kept lookin at each other it was cute.. lol came up 2 him thought it was luis cuz i 4 got wat luis looked like..uhhh then jes chillled there saw some ppl from Chs like uhhhh Natalie, Carissa, and Tara i think their Cheerleaders. andb4 dat was at da commons wit Jen...uhh yah met Meytar and Carinne den went 2 da party and then they took me home cuz JEn n Meytar needed 2 go 2 Rancho....so yahhhh thats my friday

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 03:29:14 GMT

ay yae yae!! guys man errr... first there was S. then were friends again but still kinda feel somethin 4 him, then A. which he thinks my friend is pretty and i dont think he thinks i like him or anythin but i do its weird err then i find out that my X peter wants 2 get back wit me. and that he always liked me but thought it wouldnt work out cuz we live so far away from each other. but i told him we can try 2 see if it would work out or not cuz his dad lives in chatsworth and i said we can jes b 2gether wen hes around here. so im still waitin if he decides if he wants 2 try? it sux cuz im like errrr come on where r u..his bros kept kickin him off da comp. so i have 2 wait. i dont no wat 2 do? or who 2 go for lol? its hard. and guys give me so much probs lol...i was totally shocked wen Peter told me that he always liked me...wow! man lol thats jes weird.